Hey soulies, I'd love your opinion on something.
So this is a real life matter, before we get into it, here's a couple things Abt me.
During my younger years, I used to play badminton like a passionate maniac. A husk for the sport. From morning till dawn. I used to play it till my legs went noodly alongside my father. But ever since my parent's divorce. I've wasn't able to play consistently since my dad went to another country and came back infrequently after their separation. That and my dad's job before the divorce.
He had to work in another country to support the fam. So during those rare visits when my dad came back, those golden opportunities for uncompromised badminton time with him were always divine. He also visited a couple of times after separating with my mother too.
But as the years passed, I gradually stopped playing badminton since my chances were always compromised by half hearted souls. Or they didn't stay due to other life matters. My family doesn't share and don't want to share the passion that I have for the sport. They're not willing or wanting to show up as my partner since our energies don't match. I'm not gonna hold compromises over my mission, passion anymore, in order to manifest the future that I stand for.
So recently, as of now, I've been blessed with an opportunity to play with a girl. I've just started playing with her and the thing is, her energy doesn't match mine in it's intensity. It shows in her actions as well, I understand that since we've just met and just recently acquainted. But I don't know if she'll be willing to grow stronger, stretch beyond with me for the long haul.
My peak years of health and fitness was at the age of 7-8 ish. I almost had a 6 pack since my 4 pack was visible. The outlines of it were there. And I'm on a mission to get back holistically in shape. I'm expert and pro at building up my skill at badminton from the very rock bottom. I'm familiar with climbing the ladder since that was what kept happening everytime my dad went away, then came back after a long time. Sometimes 2 yrs admittedly.
He doesn't visit anymore and it's been so long since.
So I'm learning to utilize my whole body again for this ride.
I know intuitively. And I trust 110% in my get back up muscle. Ain't no stranger.
I've been working out recently too so that's a bonus for my trip on the road.
Now here's my concern, since my partner may be compromised in the long run, I went with my mom to a field to check and ask about a coach for me in the sport.
I'm desperate so I did a lot to procure all these recent experiences that are now under my belt. Including this chance.
It was an indoor field and despite the hour, there were a lot of people, boys specifically. Who were at a more advanced level than me. Skill wise. Athletic and tall.
Here's the info the coach gave us, "1 hour per session for 2 days of the week for solo training," "2 hour per session for 2 days of the week for group training.
I'm planning to accept the solo sessions for 2 weeks just to grow my foundation & squeeze the juice in order to stretch. Then for the long term, switch to the group's session for the sake of financial matters since my mother isn't in the best place, financially.
"Group's" more cheap since there's lots of people.
Another of my concerns lies with there being way too many boys from what I've seen.
Admittedly I also lack the clothes I'd be comfortable playing in, in order to play full out.
I'm not comfortable with giving my 110% in my jumps with my skinny leggings. So for that matter, me and my mom will get that fixed. Keep in mind of those 'financial' matters I've expressed, they apply here.
And this entirety of an opportunity & experience is just so new and unknown to me. It's been so long since exposing and putting myself out there ever since the pandemic.
#Online school these past years & yet to start school, it's due on June.
So I'm hesitant. Almost like an sensory overload to put it out there. I just want anyone's opinions since I do love the sport, but I also feel like having a coach is excessive.
At the same time I'm just hesitant and that's due to my planner, introverted tendancies. Spontaneity & crowds aren't something I'm too familiar with when it comes to open events/experiences like these. Specially those active ones since it's been awhile.
Gimme your honest opinions and your precious insights, thoughts about this.
I'm deeply contemplating over all of this. I'd love some help with landing onto a decision.
So no egos. Just raw honesty and all them precious thoughts. I'll be forever grateful.
Ps, the indoor field looks similarly like this.
-xx.
So this is a real life matter, before we get into it, here's a couple things Abt me.
During my younger years, I used to play badminton like a passionate maniac. A husk for the sport. From morning till dawn. I used to play it till my legs went noodly alongside my father. But ever since my parent's divorce. I've wasn't able to play consistently since my dad went to another country and came back infrequently after their separation. That and my dad's job before the divorce.
He had to work in another country to support the fam. So during those rare visits when my dad came back, those golden opportunities for uncompromised badminton time with him were always divine. He also visited a couple of times after separating with my mother too.
But as the years passed, I gradually stopped playing badminton since my chances were always compromised by half hearted souls. Or they didn't stay due to other life matters. My family doesn't share and don't want to share the passion that I have for the sport. They're not willing or wanting to show up as my partner since our energies don't match. I'm not gonna hold compromises over my mission, passion anymore, in order to manifest the future that I stand for.
So recently, as of now, I've been blessed with an opportunity to play with a girl. I've just started playing with her and the thing is, her energy doesn't match mine in it's intensity. It shows in her actions as well, I understand that since we've just met and just recently acquainted. But I don't know if she'll be willing to grow stronger, stretch beyond with me for the long haul.
My peak years of health and fitness was at the age of 7-8 ish. I almost had a 6 pack since my 4 pack was visible. The outlines of it were there. And I'm on a mission to get back holistically in shape. I'm expert and pro at building up my skill at badminton from the very rock bottom. I'm familiar with climbing the ladder since that was what kept happening everytime my dad went away, then came back after a long time. Sometimes 2 yrs admittedly.
He doesn't visit anymore and it's been so long since.
So I'm learning to utilize my whole body again for this ride.
I know intuitively. And I trust 110% in my get back up muscle. Ain't no stranger.
I've been working out recently too so that's a bonus for my trip on the road.
Now here's my concern, since my partner may be compromised in the long run, I went with my mom to a field to check and ask about a coach for me in the sport.
I'm desperate so I did a lot to procure all these recent experiences that are now under my belt. Including this chance.
It was an indoor field and despite the hour, there were a lot of people, boys specifically. Who were at a more advanced level than me. Skill wise. Athletic and tall.
Here's the info the coach gave us, "1 hour per session for 2 days of the week for solo training," "2 hour per session for 2 days of the week for group training.
I'm planning to accept the solo sessions for 2 weeks just to grow my foundation & squeeze the juice in order to stretch. Then for the long term, switch to the group's session for the sake of financial matters since my mother isn't in the best place, financially.
"Group's" more cheap since there's lots of people.
Another of my concerns lies with there being way too many boys from what I've seen.
Admittedly I also lack the clothes I'd be comfortable playing in, in order to play full out.
I'm not comfortable with giving my 110% in my jumps with my skinny leggings. So for that matter, me and my mom will get that fixed. Keep in mind of those 'financial' matters I've expressed, they apply here.
And this entirety of an opportunity & experience is just so new and unknown to me. It's been so long since exposing and putting myself out there ever since the pandemic.
#Online school these past years & yet to start school, it's due on June.
So I'm hesitant. Almost like an sensory overload to put it out there. I just want anyone's opinions since I do love the sport, but I also feel like having a coach is excessive.
At the same time I'm just hesitant and that's due to my planner, introverted tendancies. Spontaneity & crowds aren't something I'm too familiar with when it comes to open events/experiences like these. Specially those active ones since it's been awhile.
Gimme your honest opinions and your precious insights, thoughts about this.
I'm deeply contemplating over all of this. I'd love some help with landing onto a decision.
So no egos. Just raw honesty and all them precious thoughts. I'll be forever grateful.
Ps, the indoor field looks similarly like this.
-xx.
